It's the uncureable disease
the one of blackened hearts
reflecting off the razor blade
blood-red skin ripped apart
but the death just moves on
a wind of high mortality
with one breath, all is gone
leaving behind broken dreams
the sickness that tears inside
a reverse cancer of the soul
but when I looked into my heart
you are the shape of it's hole
and I remember who you were
the way you used to be
you used to take my hand
you used to notice me
my suffering is pure lonliness
all alone, and without a friend
the healing will never come
and I'm ready to feel the end
I don't know how you make me smile
you bring joy to even my darkest nights
you make me feel that I'm worth the while
I want nothing more than you to be in my life
and I feel that this is one risk worth taking
but if it's a mistake then it was one worth making
I am young, but I'm not naive
and I've let my guard down
I do not fall in love easily
but I've let myself love you now
I think that maybe I'm afraid
that over time your affections will fade
promise you won't hurt me
promise you won't leave me
and I will promise you that if you wait
Somehow we'll be together one day
and I wish that day could be right now
I want nothing mo
I've been in Chicago
for an hour or so
Waiting to board a plane
I've been in Chicago
Just so you know
I'm flying to Madrid, Spain
Looks like nothing will be the same
I'm getting on a plane
Watching things start to change
right before my eyes
Watching all I'm leaving behind
From the window of that plane
watching all this fade
I miss Des Moines already
I only left this morning
That quiet little city
It had more than enough
but never enough for me
I was ready to leave
but I left the biggest part of me
Shattered it in two
a piece for me, a piece for you
I'm getting on a plane
Watching things start to change
right before my
Save me
I'm going crazy
can't break free
when the prison is of me
It's taking
over all of me
Spreading like a disease
and maybe you're the cure
Please don't turn away
Please say you won't leave
I'm not afraid to be alone
but I'm afraid of me
Wake me
up from this dream
Convince me
that I was asleep
and all that is behind me now
Please don't turn away
Please say you won't leave
I'm not afraid to be alone
but I'm afraid of me
and take me
a place that I can breathe
Somewhere to escape
To some place far away
Where the city lights fade
out far from view
and take me - anywhere that's with you
and I've had enough of me
Bu
Heaven, send me an angel
Someone to forgive my shame
but Heaven sent me an angel
and I pushed him far away
Why would I say the things I say
When everything I want is in his gaze
The lines of my Angel's face
Why would I tell you to go
and say that this has to be through
To beat a love until it's black and blue
Why would I when I know
I could never live without you
Heaven send me an angel
Someone to take away my pain
but Heaven sent me an angel
and I watched him walk away
So many things I wish I could say
and I just want him to stay
To chase me when I ran away
Why would I tell you to go
and say that this has to be through